mondyphobia

I`m so Emo Emo ,

And i don`t give a shit so,

They can go fuck they`re selfs,

Cuz i`m here ,trying to put a knife in my chest.

And they can talk shit as much as they want

Me and my blood are mixing enough.

This cocktail is part of hell,

And i just wanna have  a taste before i get there.

And i would send a letter

To my mum and dad ,

To let them know the whole mess which i felt,

Don`t try to mail me soon , this is my last trip to the moon,

The ticket was for free and at the first class ,

So i`m just trying to break  up the glass ,

To see the real view of the hell world

I know , now ur saying that i`m asshole.

 

 

 

So , this should be the Emo feeling ? ha ?

 

 

ps.made by me

Oh ok , so the last few days i couldn`t sleep , i can't sleep whole night and when morning comes i fall asleep , but i wake up sooo  late and with head aches and tired , by the way, at night i can`t sleep but when the sun is up i can , so , what to do ? now is almost 1p.m. and i'm going to take a nap , i barely can keep my eyes open , this sucks , so , do you guys have this kind of problems ? if u know what to do, say to me , i will appreciate ! 

p.s. NO MILK please xD

 

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Ok , so best new ever , I have a brother , and we are TWINS haha , mum said that we look so so so similar , but i dunno it is true , so here we come , Joshy AND Me , the NEW TWINS LOL



we look similar ? yes or no ?

Inspired from another world,
Living for a new dream,
Always trying to survive,
But sometimes i forgot that i`m alive ...

Why i think about this ?
It only makes my heart to freeze
A avalanche of lies disturbing my mind
And lots of words are playing inside .

Words who might be true or might be fake ,
We can make the difference between life or death ,
Cuz we are so adventurous to live and so afraid to die .

Don`t be scared and live you`re life
But think it twice before you try ....

ok , so that`s my wish for all the people here ! Everyone should enjoy X`mas so hope you guys will have lots of fun ! cuz that`s the most  important thing . And of course Happy time for everyone cuz i know one of you , my friends , don`t celebrate Christmas ! soo Happy Holidays for Pbear , Trya,Joshy,Essay,Blaze,Elrich and everyone who`s my best friend....:)

well , i woke up in this morning and as usual i wanted to check out the site and  i was absolutely shocked  hahaha , the new look is DOPE ! like literally , i really like it and it totally made my day , spending one straight year here made me feel so bored with the old look and now i am like fresh and back in crazy stuff , now i saw the forum doesn`t work but hopefully it will be on soon . Hope you guys like the new look as much as i do , is like a Chrismas gift hahhaha^^ and Tila was the Santa Claus but she forgot to say : HO HO HO , you`re welcome ! ... ok ok , i was kidding....haha ....so we start to enjoy the new look and i don`t know , we need to stay tuned here and try that all the things will be ON , no boredom on here, ok ?


LOVE YOU GUYS =P

ok , today i talked  after a very long time with my friend TRYA and she said to me that she is goin` to have a surgery , i`m kinda freaked out with all that stuff , and im just wrainting this to show my support for her ! love you Trya ! i`m here for you and a lot of people loves ya` =) hope you will be better soon !

Sometimes,words are said without pain,
Sometimes,people are thinking about blame,
Sometimes,you and me are fighting in game.

However,my mind is closen.
My thoughts are blind
My heart is broken.

White univers for me,
I guess is more better now.
No people to judge me
And i am the one wondering , how ?

How people can see you`re self ?
How people can get to know you ?
When they only like to fake and to annoy you ?

A lot of questions without answer ,
Questions wich are playing in my mind.
Only more words to forgive,
But are good to say , in fact ...

well  this week had started wonderful but now is no more like that...i feel like i`m startin` to feel bad...=| yesterday i was extremly happy cuz my box from my best friend Bear finally came and i was all smiles all the day long...but now is more like that....i guess because today is that day wich i hate, 12 november , the day wich i lost my father...i was young but those images with my dead father are in my mind even now ... i just remember that with a day before my aunt said to me that "YOU`RE DADDY WILL TAKE LONG  JOURNEY , BUT HE WILL BE OK" and than the next day , my uncle took me to my home to see my dad for the last time.....it was really horror....i came in the house and i saw my mum crayin` , my grandma , my sister and almost all of my family , at that point i just kinda don`t realise what happend to me...i was in shock =(....they said to me that my dad is on the living room and there he was ...in a fuckin` coffin...and i coudn`t watch cuz i was terrified....i took steps back and the only thing wich i wanted, it was to leave ! ...and i leaved...my mum sent me to my aunt house...i was there until the night came...than i came back at home and things were just about to go normal....despite that i was feelin` that my life has ended , my sister and my mum help me to step forward .Well , i guess i just miss him....cuz i really love him .. but is not with me...and that makes me really sad. =((.I hope one day i will no remember those moments anymore cuz it hurts a lot . Take care all....and remember that life is short and we need to enjoy it to the fullest....

I wanna play
The russian roulette.
If i win, i will be
The big pimp dead.

I will make history
In the poker Game
Two queens , one king ,
But where is the magic set ?

Guess what ?!
I won the game !
I`m the winner
You`re the blame...

Random poem in midnight
Guess i`m good ,but i forgot
All the lyrics wich are here
Are only for you , dear ...


                                                           By anaTHS

well...here is 9 a.m and i woke up like a half of houre agoo ...such a beautiful day outside , i hope that at least today will be a sunny day without rain...=) so i just finish my conversation with one of my bests friend here (icexxman) cuz he has to go at school and now i`m just goin` to have a shower , eat, learn and than school...what  a nice plan ...isn` t it ? haha^^ but at least tommorow is the last day of school and than WEEKEND ! =) again` back in crazy stuff =)  but anyway ...i`m just teriffied from what i saw the last day...i saw how one person (my cousin ) gets a tattoo...is just horror....here are not tattoo salons ...did you belive that ? but are some poeple here who makes tattoo for some money and they are "Artists" kinda...the tattoo machine is made by a  car mottor of a toy....JESUS...and the blood was like a river LOL...i was about to pass away...how people can endure so much pain only for a freakin` Tattoo ? if before i saw that i was a tattoo fan, now i`m not...i think it will pass like 10 years to forgot that CRAP ...holy shit...=) well now i will end with this....Have a beautiful day everyone or a good night ! haha^^

 "When love hit us"

When i think about you ,
My whole world changes.
I can`t hear what everybody says,
I only think about my mistakes.

All that true crushes me,
Is to much paintfull to see,
How happy we should be,
With all this love in me.

Come on and save me
I`m losing my mind
Watin` and waitin`
For you to be mine .

One love , one chance ,
Screamin` at my heart to pass,
This whole game of chess...

I`m inside
You`re outside
How can i get you ?
When you gone trough ?

No time , no limits , no end
I can finally , undestand ...
My steps are following you ,
But i`m here searching you , true !

Can i get you ?
I`m full of lies
And fake shit words
Noone can say me
What should i choose ?

If i will switch the end with the beginning ,
Delete this part by skiping another part,
And finally , write this like a scary art ,
What i will have ?
no more than a bottle of Jack =) XD

hmm....good answer ... see what is happening to me when is raining to much ? LOL :))
 

well...today was my first day at a new school...first impression  : Pretty cool..! ... i met my new roomates and made some friends there...i pretty like it !...are some bitches there but i don`t even care about cuz i have more good things to do...LOL...i want that the school will start in all the ways...i mean , despite the fact that i hate teachers , i love to make fun on them and piss they off...haha..pretty evil and i know . Also i`m searching for a basketball coach cuz  i really wanna go to kick some asses and i don`t wanna spend all my time only at school...that sucks ... litterally ! ...anyway ... here is raining like NEVER ...from 3 days agoo i can`t goo outside  !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  are you kiddin` me ? God , pls bless me with some sun , cuz i need ! belive me ....=( i hate when the wether is like that...makes me feel nastalgic and pretty upset...and as usuall when i`m not in the city , i`m here with you guys , spending my time on internet....sooo now i will just be here ,as always ...=) xD


xoxo ANA

well , today i just  felt that my life is back to normal =) ...after having some really bad days now i fell so freakin` good xD... i just put it in my mind and i guess i have the power to make it happend...All the day i was very busy but this thing don`t disturb my hapiness... =) yayy =) ...Now i`m searching a basketball coach cuz i wanna go and kick some asses hahahahhaa...i don`t wanna lost time anymore , scholl starts the next week and i really don`t want to resume all my time at school , i want to go at basketball and of course i will keep with my music =) , guess i like to be busy .... i don`t know....really....Also , i`m pretty ancious and excited that schools starts cuz i wanna see my new roomates and teachers,despite the fact that i really don`t like teachers xD .. LOL...TEACHERS = Succkers....PANDAAAA ! .....i`m going to noway right now ... i`m random as always....but yeahh what`s new , right ? .... soo i hope you don`t read this cuz i freakin` bored this rondom babbling LOL...Anyway if you read this thx and leave you`re random  opinion .......



xoxoxoxoxo







I think is the best Romania BEER !...haha...this is for Paradise cuz he likes free beer ...LOL haha xD

i had a day with soo mixt feelings then i don`t even know what to say ... like literally !...i start this day watchin` VMA`s 2008 =) and i `m so happy that Britney won ... cuz she past trough a lot of fuckin` problems...and i think that she deserve that...anyway , after that i was with my friend in the city and i just had a bad time there...LOL...she make me feel like i was more inferior then she...cuz she has more money ...Damn...i just cut it out..i don`t need that kind of "friends" if i can call them like that....I came at home like 2 houres agoo and i had a serious discusion with my mum , and finally she said to me that she will be supporting me in my decision for my future...i`m so happy that even one person is by my side to support me , it feels pretty good...before now she was all the time with dudes about me and what i want...Also i just feel that someone really loves me =) since i lost my dad , my conection with my family become a little bit cold...but i think is ok....i really wanna that this day will finally end because tommorow is a new fresh day...i know what i want and i will fight for it ! i have this all the time in my mind....I`m so lucky to have my best friend here ,  i love you guys ( Paradise , Kailey , Essexlow and Trya ) ...i really care about you all =) ....now i`m going to have a shower and then only tv and sleep...x3

well ... i`m finally at home...all the day i was on my ex school making all the stuff that i need for my new school...all the teachers were there asking me like...why i left that school and bla bla bla bla....anyway ...finally i escape from all that BS...i came at home like 1 houre agoo and i just put some rondom toughts on the paper...well now i`m pretty tired and i just wanna go to watch tv...and sleep...tommorow is a new day ... hmm...=|


Chemestry,
History,
No more sluts ,
No more words.

Memories behind my back
Images behind my mind

Creepy mind
Evel look,
Stinky style,
You`re a slut too.

Back at me...
Empthy heart,
Golden sheets,
Busy mind
Fallin` dreams...

Escuse my dirty words
But when we speak about sluts
Beauty words kind of sucks
So we need to keep it real
And solve this deal...





If i wrote something wrong pls esc me...

Don`t be afraid to fight
Life maybe is a bitch
But we can beat
And finally ,just watch
How scare she is ...

Life is so closer to death
So i guess is true
That we can gone trough
But maybe is a lie
And all of us will die...

We just wait for it
Sometimes excited,
Sometimes sad ,
But nobody knows it...

Can anyone say  to me how is to be died ?
Is a question without answer...

we need to live us life to the fullest...we can do this...don`t be afraid to be what you really are...

p.s.this poem is inpired by Tila`s journal ("i`m really that crazy ?")

Scare me if you can
This is not for you
You are a fuckin` ghost
I`m a pretty girl
And i gone trough

Just fuck you`re self
And let me go
I just saw enough
I don`t want to see
You are a fuckin`ghost
And i`m me...

Bitch !? This is a fake party
I don`t want to dance
You don`t want to strip
So let`s over it
And gone with this dream .


This is one of my rondom poems...i feel like crap today so that`s the result...hmm...=( xD