Mondyphobia's Journals

The Rap lyrics for the song Emo Emo - By Santa Maffy

I`m so Emo Emo ,

And i don`t give a shit so,

They can go fuck they`re selfs,

Cuz i`m here ,trying to put a knife in my chest.

And they can talk shit as much as they want

Me and my blood are mixing enough.

This cocktail is part of hell,

And i just wanna have a taste before i get there.

And i would send a letter

To my mum and dad ,

To let them know the whole mess which i felt,

Don`t try to mail me soon , this is my last trip to the moon,

The ticket was for free and at the first class ,

So i`m just trying to break up the glass ,

To see the real view of the hell world

I know , now ur saying that i`m asshole.

So , this should be the Emo feeling ? ha ?

ps.made by me

I CAN'T SLEEP ! What to do ? O.O Help...

Oh ok , so the last few days i couldn`t sleep , i can't sleep whole night and when morning comes i fall asleep , but i wake up sooo late and with head aches and tired , by the way, at night i can`t sleep but when the sun is up i can , so , what to do ? now is almost 1p.m. and i'm going to take a nap , i barely can keep my eyes open , this sucks , so , do you guys have this kind of problems ? if u know what to do, say to me , i will appreciate !

p.s. NO MILK please xD

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TWINS ! LOL =))

Ok , so best new ever , I have a brother , and we are TWINS haha , mum said that we look so so so similar , but i dunno it is true , so here we come , Joshy AND Me , the NEW TWINS LOL

we look similar ? yes or no ?

Live you`re life

Inspired from another world,
Living for a new dream,
Always trying to survive,
But sometimes i forgot that i`m alive ...

Why i think about this ?
It only makes my heart to freeze
A avalanche of lies disturbing my mind
And lots of words are playing inside .

Words who might be true or might be fake ,
We can make the difference between life or death ,
Cuz we are so adventurous to live and so afraid to die .

Don`t be scared and live you`re life
But think it twice before you try ....

Merry Christmas EVERYONE !

ok , so that`s my wish for all the people here ! Everyone should enjoy X`mas so hope you guys will have lots of fun ! cuz that`s the most important thing . And of course Happy time for everyone cuz i know one of you , my friends , don`t celebrate Christmas ! soo Happy Holidays for Pbear , Trya,Joshy,Essay,Blaze,Elrich and everyone who`s my best friend....:)

NEW LOOK ! i`m dying over here ! thank you Tila ! LOOOLL haha^^

well , i woke up in this morning and as usual i wanted to check out the site and i was absolutely shocked hahaha , the new look is DOPE ! like literally , i really like it and it totally made my day , spending one straight year here made me feel so bored with the old look and now i am like fresh and back in crazy stuff , now i saw the forum doesn`t work but hopefully it will be on soon . Hope you guys like the new look as much as i do , is like a Chrismas gift hahhaha^^ and Tila was the Santa Claus but she forgot to say : HO HO HO , you`re welcome ! ... ok ok , i was kidding....haha ....so we start to enjoy the new look and i don`t know , we need to stay tuned here and try that all the things will be ON , no boredom on here, ok ?

LOVE YOU GUYS =P

My best friend having surgery ! HOLY S****

ok , today i talked after a very long time with my friend TRYA and she said to me that she is goin` to have a surgery , i`m kinda freaked out with all that stuff , and im just wrainting this to show my support for her ! love you Trya ! i`m here for you and a lot of people loves ya` =) hope you will be better soon !

Humans or animals , the same thing xD well i wrote this poem cuz someone really made me angry on him...but the storm past ...

Sometimes,words are said without pain,
Sometimes,people are thinking about blame,
Sometimes,you and me are fighting in game.

However,my mind is closen.
My thoughts are blind
My heart is broken.

White univers for me,
I guess is more better now.
No people to judge me
And i am the one wondering , how ?

How people can see you`re self ?
How people can get to know you ?
When they only like to fake and to annoy you ?

A lot of questions without answer ,
Questions wich are playing in my mind.
Only more words to forgive,
But are good to say , in fact ...

Mix emotionss...=| why i feel like that ?

well this week had started wonderful but now is no more like that...i feel like i`m startin` to feel bad...=| yesterday i was extremly happy cuz my box from my best friend Bear finally came and i was all smiles all the day long...but now is more like that....i guess because today is that day wich i hate, 12 november , the day wich i lost my father...i was young but those images with my dead father are in my mind even now ... i just remember that with a day before my aunt said to me that "YOU`RE DADDY WILL TAKE LONG JOURNEY , BUT HE WILL BE OK" and than the next day , my uncle took me to my home to see my dad for the last time.....it was really horror....i came in the house and i saw my mum crayin` , my grandma , my sister and almost all of my family , at that point i just kinda don`t realise what happend to me...i was in shock =(....they said to me that my dad is on the living room and there he was ...in a fuckin` coffin...and i coudn`t watch cuz i was terrified....i took steps back and the only thing wich i wanted, it was to leave ! ...and i leaved...my mum sent me to my aunt house...i was there until the night came...than i came back at home and things were just about to go normal....despite that i was feelin` that my life has ended , my sister and my mum help me to step forward .Well , i guess i just miss him....cuz i really love him .. but is not with me...and that makes me really sad. =((.I hope one day i will no remember those moments anymore cuz it hurts a lot . Take care all....and remember that life is short and we need to enjoy it to the fullest....